You Have The Choice To Not Have Choices, But It's Hard!

A while ago, in April, I did write about how humans, especially as adults, have the choice to not have choices.
Sounds confusing? I can assure you that it is as interesting as it is confusing to ponder upon. If you haven't read it, do check it out.

But despite the interesting part. I just realized that I left out something. I left out something that is not so interesting. Something that is the killerjoy, something that if I let you know, you might not see this topic as interesting as it is anymore.
But I'll you know anyway, since it's the truth.

It's hard.
To choose to not have choices is hard.
Especially for people like me.

What does that mean, you ask?

Well, if you ask me to describe myself, maybe the first thing that I'll say is I know myself well.
I am someone who knows clearly what I need & what I don't need, what I like & I don't like, what I want & what I don't want. Like, clearly.
As a result, I tend to plan out my future in great details, far before the time. For example, I planned to pursue in pure science when I turn 16, when I was 13 years old. And I planned to pursue psychology, which I am doing know, when I was 16 years old. And even know, I have precise plans for my career & future for decades to come.

So, when I do make plan, there is no excuses for me to not execute my own plan, because I am the one who plans it, and I have already think all the things needed to be thought to plan it.
There is no excuses for me to have any other choices.

But, the thing is, I lack self-discipline & willpower.
So, even if I do intend to stick to my plan,
even if I have chosen to not have choices,
with the lack of self-discipline & willpower, I will tend to go astray from my plans.

So yeah, choosing to not have choices, will be extremely hard if you don't have self-discipline & willpower.

And especially the fact that I know what I want, kinda tricks me into thinking that I am doing what's best for me, while in reality I'm slacking & going astray. That is why I specifically say 'especially for people like me'.

I know what you're thinking. It is a very sick & twisted mentality to live in. I think so too. Lucky for me that I've noticed it.
But that's not enough. I need to overcome it.

But how?

Just like the words that I bolded, it all comes down to willpower & self-discipline. You want to get out from this problem? Those two things need to be strong.
How to strengthen them? By practicing. Over & over.

Which means, whenever I feel lazy when I need to do something, I must do the opposite.

Again, this is kinda hard for people like me.
People like me tend to find the smartest & the most efficient (a.k.a lazy) way to do something, and I am willing to spend quite a portion of my time to think about it.

Although it is not wrong to do things in the smartest & the most efficient way, in this particular case, there is only one way & there is no other way.

Of course, I can do other so-called smart & efficient alternatives, like having supporting friends, have a good environment, and get rid of bad surroundings.
But ultimately, the way to overcome the laziness, is to fight the laziness.
Only by that, my willpower & my self-discipline will grow.

In conclusion, choosing to not have choices is simple, but it's not easy.
Confusing, isn't it? Well, life has always been confusing, ain't it?

I am always courageous enough to choose to not have choices. But I hope I will be strong enough to live by it.

Nobody is perfect. A little progress is a progress.
Pray for me, I'll pray for you.

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